I just got a letter informing me that I was accepted to Gill-Tech Adcademy of Hair Design!
I'm so excited... I stated on my application that I wanted to start in November; but I might just start in January so I can get enough money n' stuff. But, how cool is that??
My weekend was a little interesting. Saturday, I saw Pirates of the Caribbean, which was AWESOME; I can't wait till the third one. Then earlier in the day I went to a friend's graduation and that was... um. Alright, I guess.
My old youth pastor was there and it was nice to see him at first, but then out of no where he asked me "Are you still afraid to go up in front of people?" and I said, "Somewhat... yeah." Then he says, "Okay, good." then I asked him why and all he said was "You'll see." You'll see? What the heck?
So later during the ceremony Scott gets up there (Youth pastor) and he starts talking about my friend and how he's proud of her. Then he calls both her and myself up there.
Now before I go any further, let me explain something... her and I have had a very rocky friendship; especially in 7th grade. Her and I were pretty much always having our problems. Either she did something to me, or I did something to her.
But, let me also say that she's the type of person that's aggressive, head-strong, go-getter, strong-willed, so if she's mad at you... she'll pretty much ignore you depending on how bad the situation is. That said... let me continue.
Scott continues to explain our little friendship, then he asks us to role play. She was supposed to come up to me and say hello, then I was supposed to pretend that I was mad at her. So I did... people laughed. Blah blah.
Then! He continues to say that it was HER that tried to do all the fixing of the relationship and he made it seem like I was the one who was always pissed and unwilling to reconcile with her. Ok, now I know that it was her day in the sun and she deserves the praise that she gets. She did try to fix some of the things that went on in our relationship, and I agree when he said that she is the kind of person who doesn't like her friendships to fall apart.
But... I also know that there quite a few times where she would ignore me for the dumbest reasons. And guess what? She wouldn't try to fix it. She would come up to me every couple of months and tell me what I was doing wrong in the relationship and she would tell me that I needed to change. I would go home crying at night because I wasn't whatever she wanted. It wasn't just her either, it was some other girl, too.
Scott doesn't know what he's talking about. He was always a little more biased when it came to Her. I felt that he always got along with her and her family than he got along with my family and I. He would always lean more towards her case than he did mine.
So basically, I was up there and I was reminded of why I hate being in front of people.
Like I said, I agree when he said that she doesn't like it when her friendships fall apart; she will try to fix it.
I don't want people to read this and think "Wow. She must hate her friends." No, I don't hate her, I have a great amount of respect for her. We've been through a bunch of shit together and now we're at a place where I think I might be a little more comfortable with her.
I just... haven't forgiven her for the things that have happened before; it's hard for me to let it all go.
I don't want people to think that I'm some angel, though, either. I'm far from it. Whatever... the people who know me will understand why it affected me so much. I'm done venting.
Yay that I got in! :D